What went wrong

2 years exactly, since I joined CD. Boy, it was not easy for me to make up my mind to leave, even though it is crystal clear to me now that the right choice is made.

What went wrong then? Well, maybe nothing has to be wrong for anyone to move on. This is probably the case for me. Retrospectively speaking, I have had to take many extreme steps to make things happen in a very much traditional business, structure-wise and culture-wise, which is obviously conflicting with the product and technology the business was setup to achieve, unfortunately. Do I regret what I have done? No, not a second. I have done what it takes to make improvement in many dead corners, and get things done. Sometime I think myself more of a doer rather than a speaker. However, there are things I could have done, more at least...

Two things learnt, know when to play dumb and conscious effort. Knowing when to ask the right questions, when to build a escalator to encourage others to climb up and realise, able to face and tackle their own ambiguious areas, will actually go a longer way than fighting through alone. A successful leader should not only be able to visage and direct the way, more importantly, to carry people with you.

I am not a huge fan of spiritual walk or meditation as such, but Dona's conscious self has given a quite concise definition as what it takes to make conscious efforts. Here goes:

"Effort is work directed toward a specific goal. The word effort implies trying. With effort, there is something you want to achieve. ... Conscious effort is that action which is chosen, that effort which chooses action other than that determined by unconscious forces, habitual reaction. "